I want to tell you so many things. Yet the words just won’t form. My lips open but then close. I can’t seem to explain that you’re taking hold of my attention and heart. I can’t seem to make you see what I see. You’re breath taking to me. The way you speak and think. The way you move when you walk. The way you smile and the way you look at me. The way you’re always so calm. It is all wonderful to me. 

I can’t seem to tell you how hard this is for me. How scary this is for me. How exciting this is for me. You told me to just breathe. To stop thinking and just relax and breathe. If only you had an idea of how hard that is for me to do at this point in my life, then maybe you’d understand better. But there’s something about you that makes me want to try to just let go and breathe. For you I’ll try. But I hardly know you. Now I’m already falling for you, and everything inside me is screaming to slow down and make sure my heart is protected. There is just something about you though….

Something that’s screaming even louder. Telling me to just try one more time. Maybe it’s time to learn to love, and be loved again. Just maybe it’s time to be safe. 

All I know is I can’t stop thinking about you.